On a cheerier note...

My car is leaking oil and my husband is on his way to a work meeting with it, then hopefully to take it to the shop around 1:30, and I am FREAKING out. I am so paranoid the damn thing is going to explode or run out of oil and leave him stranded on the highway. I called the shop and they told me to call back after 9 to even find out if he can bring it in at 1:30.

So here's a little something you might not know about E-Speed me (edited for anonymous, I didn't know third person was so offensive, my apologies). I have a phone phobia. I hate picking up the dang phone and dialing. It seriously causes me stress. I even have this fear when dialing up old friends and family. It is completely irrational and I know it but I can't make it go away.

So I am flipping out because I already called the shop once and ended in tears because the guy really made it sound like they wouldn't look at the car but to call back at 9, so now I am freaking because I am sure that the next guy will tell me he can't look at it and that my husband will be stuck in Aurora until I get home from work and then we will just have to abandon my car until the next time he has a weekday off.

Meanwhile the car was just in last MONDAY, so I cannot even fathom why it decided to wait and leak now.

Blah. Why am I such a worrier? I cannot control the outcome of things but I sit and fret about them until I make myself sick. WTF? How can I be such a mentally tough runner and triathlete but be such a freaking sissy when it comes to normal lifes blows. Seriously I never worry about how a race will go. I prepare for it I walk through it in my head and I show up race morning ready to make it happen. I guess I just feel more in control with that then in real life. Aha! Perhaps we have found yet another Real reason for why I run. Control.

Onto that cheerier note. I had a very relaxing weekend. Lots of games were played and my 20 miler went off without a hitch. My left ITB was a little sore but ice and ibuprofen has done its job I think. I should have known not to do the whole 20 miles on the roads, I haven't run very long on the roads in a Looong time. Hopefully tonight I will get in a track run and that will go swimmingly too.

Seriously stressed E-Speed Out

17 comments:

Jodi said...

Wow, I thought I was the only one with a phone phobia. I can honestly say I know exactly how you feel!

Hang in there! Take some deep breaths and try to chase the worries away.

Spokane Al said...

Wow, I suggest you remember your relaxing weekend and relax. Worrying does not accomplish a great deal except increasing our stress level. All we can do is what we can do. You plan for the worst and hope for the best. It sounds like that is just what you did.

Pharmie said...

Wow. Doesn't sound like a fun day. Hopefully the rest of the week goes better!

jessica said...

Hey - I have the same problem with the telephone. I hate telephone conversations with a passion, and will put off picking up the telephone as long as I possibly can.

Don't worry too much about the car until something actually happens, because maybe nothing will!

Take care!

rob reddy said...

i don't like the phone also - thought I was the only one - not exactly a phobia but i will avoid making most calls - i'm ok calling friends, well most friends ;]

n.o.s. said...

I am the same way (about phones *and* cars). I've been nervous all morning because I had to 1)take my car in and 2) wait for the dealership to call me back about it. I just *knew* they were going to tell me I needed $1200 worth of repairs on top of the $540 they had already quoted me. Turns out I "only" need an additional $340's worth. Um...yay?

Josh said...

Training for a marathon or a tri is hard but at least there's a plan and a schedule and you can stick to it.

There's no training schedule for life and it's tribulations. BUT you can "prepare for it...walk through it in my head and show up... ready to make it happen."

Your words not mine.

Smile.

Neil said...

Get that husband of yours under that car!

He has plenty of resources that can tell him how to check and fill the oil for you too.

Oh well, at least it is odd for your car to leak oil. :)

toughcookie7 said...

I know exactly how you feel. I stress out until I make myself physically ill about things I can't control. Sometimes the only thing that takes away the mental stress is putting physical stress on my body, which is why I like training so much.

Soon it will all be over and your car will be fixed! And then it'll seem like all of this never happened.

Rae said...

Hopefully the phone call from SLJ helped some in the phone phobia!!

I hate dealing with stuff like that, too. Most people just do a crappy job with whatever there profession is and it seems like it's ALWAYS a pain to get someone to do their job!!

Great job with the 20 miler!

Josh said...

I'm the same way with a lot of things too. So I understand completely. Training/running is just so simple. You have a schedule or goal and you prepare ... then you go out and do it. Life likes to throw you curveballs here and there that we can't account for.

RunBubbaRun said...

Don't sweat it, my car has been leaking oil for years, As long as it can carry my bike, that is all that matters. Get back on those trails, less painful on those long miles.

Ginger Breadman said...

Hopefully writing it all out in a blog alleviated some of the stress - see, you did do something about it - something you knew how to do well, and something in your control. Whatever the deal is with the car, don't fret too much - life happens. Sometimes for reasons we know not why.

Lora said...

Oh gosh...you made me remember how my sister and I used to torture our little brother cuz he had a phone phobia!

When he misbehaved we called the Operator to report him!! OMG--sorry Joey--I wonder if that would still work?? hehehe

Anonymous said...

... um, you referred to yourself in the third person ... and as "E-speed" no less ....

Kate said...

Man, I so know what you mean. And so many fellow phone-phobes.... Unfortunately P is also a phone phobe so we're always trying to get the other one to make the calls.

Anonymous said...

Yoiks, no need to edit post (or to be offended) :)

Have fun,

Anonymous